"When it comes to mental health, sometimes you let depression get the best of you. Sometimes you just give up all hope and then find yourself somewhere where you shouldn't be. You fall into the endless abyss and embrace the water flowing around you. You are at peace and the thought of life or death is nowhere to be seen, just the water, in this present moment. Air begins to become non-existent. Suffocate, suffocate, suffocate. Drown, drown, drown. This time, there's really no hope. In your last few moments before leaving this life, you find the surface. Don't let your mind play that trick on you. Don't let the water take you."


DLR-017D (Deluxe)

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"This EP, quite honestly, changed my life for the better. I'm finally happy with myself, my life, and my music career and what I would want to make genre wise. I used to only make metal/noise music, which you can hear some noise influences here and there with the ambiance, and I realized I wasn't too happy with it minus my Internals Collapse project. The making of this EP was rushed, but that's okay since this turned out to be something phenomenal, life changing, and almost my magnum opus … If you will. Making this release was pretty hard, I had just come out of the hospital a week prior from something that I won't go into detail with, and I felt like it was the right time, to just start making music that I genuinely love. And that was the right time. The EP was made in a short amount of time, and we'd spend several hours just slaving on Discord calls over this release, but it came out excellent. I'm reliving that happiness I got when this first came out, and it immediately became known thanks to Reddit. I'm so stoked for this release, and good job to all of you who remixed a song! They all sound fucking amazing!!! <3 Musically, this release wasn't planned. The songs (rough cuts) were already previously in the works, but we one day decided to sit down and think, work, and make sure this EP was as good as we could make it, and I think it turned out really well! Minus the fact we're way better at producing now, this is one of the best sounding releases under my belt. The production of this was a direct split of 50/50, and honestly? I didn't expect this to happen at all, I didn't expect to release something that sounded nice, I thought it'd end up being mediocre. I was terribly wrong. Thank you Zoloft for planning out the release, helping with the visualizers (minus Thalassophobia), dealing with my complicated bullshit, and managing to not snap my neck in half for some of the dumb shit I do. And just everything in general. Without you, man, this wouldn't be happening. A huge thanks to xrt, DFI, Albassort, and Experience for being on the remixes. And most importantly, Harmonic, thank you for jumpstarting my career, giving me motivation when I couldn't get it anywhere else, dealing with my bullshit, me being depressed, and being my best friend in the whole world for the last five years. At this point, you're pretty much a brother to me, and thank you for making such a bangin' EP with me. I can't wait for later on this month, and I can't wait to start working on the album again, and what we may have in the future. And thank you to all of you who bought any of the three physicals we have for this release. I'm glad that I have music good enough for it to be in someone's collection. You are all awesome. 🤝" - Terminal Narcolepsy

"The making of this EP was rather rushed in a sense, but I’ll always have a great respect for it as we were limited to very minimalistic production choices. I’m not good with minimalism at all; I normally like to continuously add element after element to my music because I’m afraid that it’ll get stale quickly, but it’s obvious that most people listen to my music to have an experience rather than to pay attention to the intricacies. This EP completely flipped everything around for me. Rewind to a few months before the original release, and I had been working on early rough mixes of some of the tracks before we had even come up with the idea for Drowning Desire. In this stage, the majority of sounds were just loops. Said loops on their own were obviously not very fit for a release, so one day, me and Terminal Narcolepsy decided to work on the tracks a bit more. The first track that was completed was “Drowning” (the main sample being found in a video of a crude CGI recreation of a well-known cartoon character), the next track being completed was “Resurfacing” (the main sample from that being a video of a friend of mine playing handpan). Then "Dive Into The Abyss" was completed, the only song to not have been a work-in-progress before these sessions began, (the main sample being something from a popular video game manipulated beyond high hell). Lastly, "Reflection" was completed a merely 9 minutes before the EP was released (the main sample being a trombone cover of another artist's song). Terminal did the cover art, and I designed the physicals and remastered the release for this deluxe edition. While I do wish some things were done better and changed in the original release, this has been fixed in this release. I am very proud of this project, and I couldn’t be more thankful that I was able to make it with my best friend in the entire universe. This was the first project where we truly collaborated in a 50/50 balance, and I’d do it again in a heartbeat. It’s still one of my favorites that we’ve done, and I hope that you’ll enjoy it as much as we did creating it. Cheers!" - Harmonic Illusion

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SELECTED REVIEWS:

"A solid debut vaporwave EP that bears an engulfing soundscape that pulls you down into its watery depths and gives you something to discover, before leaving you with a memory that lingers. Despite its short length, each track holds its own distinct character whilst pertaining to the theme of water. With a combination of manipulated samples and effected instrumentation, all whilst assembled into a mix that is satisfying to the ears, this is nothing short of a pleasant listen that leaves you wondering where these guys will take you next."
- Trenchwraith

"'Drowning Desire of an Endless Abyss' is not just another EP, but an experience. When one listens to this, it takes them through a journey. The great thing about this EP, in my opinion, is not just the musical aspect, but the feeling you get. The sense of you wanting to do more before time runs out, before you succumb. This EP reminds the listener to not give in, to not succumb, but also having to recover from the ups, and the downs. Good job Terminal Narcolepsy and Harmonic Illusion, or known together as Hallucinations, on making such a different experience. 8/10."
- Nightlight